The Planner In Me

Believe it or not I am writing this blog from the comfort of our couch. Yes, it is finally time I update you blog readers out there: we have gotten internet in our apartment and the result has been life changing. No more coffee trips just to turn an assignment in. We can now do homework in our jammies, watch unlimited movies on netflix, or watch TV shows that couldn't be rented like SURVIVOR and the latest season of Heroes that we have been dying to see. We can chat on the phone and have a computer in front of us at the same time, like I said... life changing. 

So here we are: It is our day off from work.  We are both still in our pjs,  we have homework papers spread out all over the coffee table. I am sipping the tea I like, in the mug I like. We have the music we like playing quietly in the background. Needless to say, we are thankful for this day. I cried last night as I attempted to answer this question from our meteorology homework: What is the distinction between microscale, mesoscale, synoptic scale, and global scale? Give an example of each and explain how they work. 

Simply put my brain has been fried to a crisp this quarter. It seems odd that this is possible when only taking two classes but the classes just so happen to be ridiculous amounts of work with really unorganized teachers. Plus, Wes is working 40 hours a week for the first time in his life and I am working 4 jobs for the first time in my life. I know I have complained to you about this multiple times but this isn't the only reason my brain has been fried. The truth is, my brain never stops. I had a moment last night of sheer frustration with myself because as I began answering this question the other half of my brain began contemplating other things. Things like: Will I take summer school? When do I need to sign up for summer classes? What do I do about my job situation? What steps do I need to start taking towards future career paths? Summer vacations? 

you get the picture. My point is that I have never been more aware of the planner in me than I have this past month. I never stop. I wake up in the morning and don't like leaving bed until I have formed a plan for the day. It's like, I don't want to "start" the day without knowing what my first moves will be. At breakfast, I plan lunch. At lunch, I plan dinner (or well, at least think about it). I make lists of daily to-do's and weekly to-do's. It's ridiculous. If you didn't know, I was suddenly sick these past three days. It started as a sore throat on sunday and ended yesterday. My symptoms went from sore throat to fevers to being too tired to stand. I can't help but wonder if this was my body forcing me to sit and rest. 

Anyway, as I sit reflecting on how overwhelmed I was last night David Crowder is delivering me to peace of mind, a mind focused on Jesus, through amazing lyrics such as this: 

Take my heart, I Lay it down
At the feet of you whose crowned
Take my life, I’m letting go
I lift it up to You who’s throned

And I will worship You, Lord
Only You, Lord
And I will bow down before You
Only You Lord

Take my fret, take my fear
All I have, I’m leaving here
Be all my hopes, be all my dreams
You're my delights, be my everything

And It’s just you and me here now
Only you and me here now

You should see the view
When it’s only You

I am thankful for moments like this.